Sorry it’s been so long but i have been having really bad issues with my husband one of which during an arugement my husband grabbed me by my throat and holding me backwards which led me to scratch the hell out of his face. When he did that i called my dad to take the kids so i could call the cops. After my dad came, I decided not to call the police. It was the first time in our 5 years together that he ever layed a hand on me. I think he just got caught up in the emotions of our arguement. Anyway, so i’ve been very stressed so i couldnt really write.
We are a bit better now, it has never gotten that far and it never will again because i swore that if he ever puts his hands on me like that again, i would be gone. That would be it, and i have my dad and therapist’s support on that.
Twice he said that he was leaving me because we are having problems. But he didnt do it. He keeps trying to make up and then something will set us off for an arguement and he’ll want to leave again. Look, i am not throwing him out but if he wants to leave, i’m gonna let him go. I have 2 special needs kids, and i’m the only one working right now, and my job sucks, so i have enough to deal with right now.
I was really bored at work today and it was a slow day, nothing really to do, i answered the phone, did some paperwork, but nothing too major so i got some time on the internet and i was browsing women’s blogs. But for the first time in a while, i was looking at blogs that have nothing to do with mental health, bpd, or anything like that. I focused on looking for positive blogs, and christian blogs and my spirits were uplifted a bit. So much so that i changed my header to match. lol. Now if only this mood will remain when i get home. *sigh*
